[ you are the shield. how many times has he mentally said that to people from home, though in a different way? i'll protect you, even if i have to trade my life for yours. he'd fight to the death without bringing it upon others— it all ended up okay in the end. everyone was safe, enemies were overthrown, even befriended— they were nothing like these situations, though. nothing prepared him for this, and nothing probably would have.
he sits on these single words in silence. if that had been gokudera ( who's shielded his boss without a second thought ), he'd be dead. if it were kyoko, or anyone else— they'd most likely be dead. even vriska herself could have died, and was all because of emotion. he couldn't grasp on to the world behind him, wanting too much good for everyone with life. it's as akame once said before, it's a kill or be killed situation. it's either one or the other. a painful choice for one so empathetic and hooked to emotion, but a choice he had to make, nevertheless.
you are the shield, not the other way around.
it's not the first, but it certainly feels like the biggest achievement in failure he's received. not just as a member of green team, made of people, but failure as a friend, as a person who has the power to defend with their entire spirit, with their literal dying will, and he didn't. the alien life taken isn't forgotten, and neither does he believe he did the right thing— which ever way it happened, it wouldn't be right, but . . . it certainly would have been wrong if he didn't protect those that counted on him. his whole world counted on him, vriska counted on him— armada counted on him. everyone that saw the green color on his cuff would count on him.
he almost struggles with it at first, eyes swiveling to the sides as his head holds down— but he doesn't keep armada waiting, not with a tone like that. holding back a look slightly teary eyed, he looks up, holding his breath, features creased with growing understanding and remorse. ]
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he sits on these single words in silence. if that had been gokudera ( who's shielded his boss without a second thought ), he'd be dead. if it were kyoko, or anyone else— they'd most likely be dead. even vriska herself could have died, and was all because of emotion. he couldn't grasp on to the world behind him, wanting too much good for everyone with life. it's as akame once said before, it's a kill or be killed situation. it's either one or the other. a painful choice for one so empathetic and hooked to emotion, but a choice he had to make, nevertheless.
you are the shield, not the other way around.
it's not the first, but it certainly feels like the biggest achievement in failure he's received. not just as a member of green team, made of people, but failure as a friend, as a person who has the power to defend with their entire spirit, with their literal dying will, and he didn't. the alien life taken isn't forgotten, and neither does he believe he did the right thing— which ever way it happened, it wouldn't be right, but . . . it certainly would have been wrong if he didn't protect those that counted on him. his whole world counted on him, vriska counted on him— armada counted on him. everyone that saw the green color on his cuff would count on him.
he almost struggles with it at first, eyes swiveling to the sides as his head holds down— but he doesn't keep armada waiting, not with a tone like that. holding back a look slightly teary eyed, he looks up, holding his breath, features creased with growing understanding and remorse. ]